Okay, so I have never read a blog and I am not sure how to start. I feel I need a release because I am so frustrated and upset and I don't want to bring people down around me anymore. Recently, since I have started talking about my frustration and anger at not being able to have a baby there are a lot of people out there. I also saw the Giuliana and Bill show and cannot watch it without crying. I found myself thinking, man, if I could just talk to her and have someone else to empathise with, I would feel so much better.
My history starts with the painful and evil endometriosis so I essentially spent 16 - 25 feeling like a crazy hypochondriac which, even after 10 years, does not go away. You always feel like no one will believe you or think you are a big baby so that is why it is so important for me to get this off my chest.
It seems that now IVF may be an option (yeah!!!! a few years ago, it was not really viable) and before we get further down the process, I need to have a positive attitude (and no longer just portray one, although I fear I have not been doing that very well lately either) inside and out. My hope is that having a blog to shout out how I am feeling, will help get me mentally where I need to be. I also hope that the people I share this with will have a better understanding of my perspective on this whole pile of dog doo.
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